Self-Discovery: How well do you know yourself?

I first wrote this to my newsletter community in May 2021, but I thought you should get to read it too

At the time, I was building out the Chaotic Habit for sustainably writing newsletters. One of the things I committed to back then is to send out letters out each month (no matter how long it takes me to do it), and I’m glad to have consistently done that for almost 2 years now. By the way, if you missed the initial buzz about Chaotic Habits, today is a good day to catch up. I’ve been told over and again that it’s premium content, and I have actually done the work of turning it into a book

Today I wanted to share about SELF-DISCOVERY and the many curve-balls that can show up as you pay attention to learning about yourself. It’s a never-ending journey of discovery, and be both exciting, and deflating (SPOILER: it’s all a matter of perspective) 

I’ll give you an example. One of the biggest discoveries I made about myself in April of 2021 is Aphantasia. It turns out that one of the major reasons I would paint such vivid pictures and detailed images with words is that I think in words. (See proof in my books and articles
I don’t think in pictures or imagery. I think in words

For me, vision boards with vivid pictures and cut-out images hold no meaning. My own vision board is a montage of quotes and phrases that mean something to me. When people say “imagine xyz”, I would string the ideas conveyed by the individual words together, but it’s never quite an image/picture (unless I chose to draw it), and so I got confused all the time, especially when people are not using the words to mean precisely what the words mean. I thought it was general, until I found out it’s not

So here was I, facing the realization that when people say “imagine xyz”, some people really can put the image together in their minds, and I was dumbfounded. And then I needed to decide what I was going to do with that discovery. While some come face-to-face with the realization that they cannot conjure images in their minds with a lot of hurt and sadness (and this reaction is very valid), I could not afford to, because taking on that perspective would push me over the edge into wallowing, and start a downward spiral I was not sure that I could recover from in that season (unpacking long-term trauma from a childhood of emotional abuse and wading through the implications of an autism diagnosis had pushed me to my limits).

So I chose to approach it from the standpoint of

“what do I need to start doing differently?”

This discovery, and the many thought processes that accompanied it, showed me different things:

  1. perspective is truly everything
  2. it’s okay to choose your paradigm, and it does not need to be the same as that of the next person
  3. self-discovery can be cultivated as an intentional process, and leveraged to help make you a better person

For example, even though I struggle to communicate, I throw in the towel less  often these days (this email is proof). Why? I now know that I can use words better than I give myself credit for, and the difficulty with communication does not make writing or speaking impossible. It might be harder on some days than others, but as long as there’s potential to be explored, and I’m going to juice it out

For the 400+ members of the Neurodiverse squad on my Twitter TL (at the time), and the thousands more we sometimes get to reach with our rich conversations, the process of learning about our respective diagnosis has driven us into a spiral of self-discovery, and a significant depth of self-awareness, and I think that we ALL (neurodivergent or otherwise) could draw lessons from the process


How often do you pause to reflect on your habits? Behavior? Likes? Dislikes? How often to you introspect to trace the roots of a habit/behavior that you like/want to get rid off? How often do you trace triggers and habit loops? How much do you know yourself?
Do you know your limits? What’s a hard limit for you? What’s are your soft limits?
How much do you know of your action patterns and where they came from – and how well would you be able to block them from being built in your children/mentees?

I could go on and on, but answering these questions would be a good start for the sort of introspection that leads to self-discovery. And as you find answers, drill down on each one, weigh it, and then ask yourself what you could do with the new information to move yourself towards the life you prefer

The bottom line is this: Self-discovery – and self-awareness – is not just so that you can reel out facts about yourself in a game at some party, or write a more impressive bio. It’s a journey that should help you structure your growth curves and intentional development to better suit the way you are wired and the things you would like to do 

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Yours in growth, development, and with a lot of love


Author: Jane Oluwadare
Jane solves hard problems so you don't stay stuck Jane (Hadassah) OLUWADARE is an autistic, dyslexic multi-dimensional woman who uses her different dimensions to amplify one another, and is committed to showing other neurodivergent people how to replicate working wisdom in their respective contexts. In the PKH Network, she brings her various facets, strengths and skills to work together in viable business models, creating solutions for other visionaries, and providing platforms for young people to grow into their own strengths, develop experience and expertise As a data analyst, strategist and business development consultant in PKH Consulting, she sits with business structures to help them identify the gaps in their processes, build the blueprints, strategy, process flows and structures that will get them from where they are to where they want to be. As a productivity and execution coach in PHRONESIS Lighthouse, she works with neurodivergent people to get more productive, and do more with less effort, with particular attention to autistic people and people with ADHD. As a fashion consultant in HSFH, she styles, illustrates, and brings 15+ years of sewing experience to bear as she works to produce and sell stylish clothing that meets sensory, functional and fashionable needs. She teaches creative and trade skills in CriArt Skill Academy, working with neurodivergent children (with particular attention to autism, dyslexia and ADHD) to show them how their natural talents and tendencies can be an advantage inside and outside of the classroom and school curriculum. Utilising games and play as tools, as well as drawing from her own personal experience as a designer, chef and writer she helps them transfer the skills from the creative arts into school subjects and real life. She writes extensively, sharing her thoughts in books, articles and through her various enterprises as creative stories and non-fiction think-pieces available in Books By Hadassah. An International Youth Council member and former Global Youth Ambassador, she sits on the boards of several youth-led organisations in an advisory capacity; and continues to work with others to help develop children and young adults to create a life of impact. At the very core of her being, Hadassah keeps chasing after The One who keeps her balanced and finds the ultimate fulfilment in her fellowship with the Holy Spirit. She quips that He is the real super power that keeps her functioning as an autistic, dyslexic person with ADHD, and often shares the insights He teaches her on Personal Development, Business Development and mindset reorientation according to the Word with Deborah's Court (her ministry expression)

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